go big or go to hell
did you know that the m in my name stands for mediocre emotional regulation? mediocre is a bit of an understatement as i couldn't think of a good word that meant something to the effect of 'poor' that started with an m. my brain is eternally at some sort of apotheosis at all times. i'll admit to rashness, impatience, jealousy, impulsiveness and melancholia, but none of my decisions are driven out of a pure hatred for others. i've been thinking a lot about hatred and anger lately. we are all so very evil, aren't we?
i think 5 separate therapists have told me this following phrase, "anger is a secondary emotion," and it's true, actually. i think my anger was born from shame and insecurity and enviousness and loneliness et cetera. i personally think that it's what we do with these emotions that make us truly evil or not.
anyway, am i still invited to your birthday party?