lethal
lately i've been feeling such a profound disconnect from society. the way i act with others is slowly starting to not feel like me. should i give up on life entirely? my body stings. i feel as though i'm watching my life progress like a movie. and there's still so much i have to do...
i either feel too much or nothing at all. i'm full of emptiness. i considered threatening self-harm in front of all my friends the other day. i'm a terrible person and i don't know whats been happening, so i'm going to give up. i've tried and tried and tried endlessly but i'm just not moving.
this october has just been really weird for me. i'm cannot be talked out of this mindset i've been put in. be gentle with me. be gentle with me. be gentle with me. i don't want to be lonely anymore.