things that happened today
let's let life pass us by like will-o'-wisps. like travelers in the night, foolish dust in the foolish wind, our essence flickering like paper lamps. let our pleasures be just that, and our sorrow merciless. this, too, shall pass, you know? most things do. stopping, going, stopping, going, seizing, halting, persisting. being stuck in traffic that lasts forever. at least when you're trapped, you can listen to music and keep yourself entertained before you go nuts.
i was absentmindedly drumming my fingers on the wood of my desk, and miss said i should play the piano—something about the way my hands moved. actually, just a week prior, i decidedly took a short break from violin, since it was becoming more or less of a chore. i'd like to think that was god talking to me, or something poetic like that. a definitive sign to pick up the piano! lucky me.
the snow looked like plaster on the ground, it prickled at my face and made my eyes sore. i didn't end up staying at school, since i was the only student there. it was a bit refreshing—like i was the only girl in the world. it was like walking in an abandoned hospital. when we enter a space that's usually filled with so much people, suddenly becoming barren, there's a sense of profound uneasiness and loneliness, right? i don't dislike that feeling.
i don't exactly remember, but i think i slept the majority of the day. woke up, fell asleep, woke up, fell asleep, woke up again. i used to struggle with insomnia when i was younger—when i started to take my pills—so that was a nice blast from the past. it's kind of funny that we struggle so much with what keeps us alive. it's eating, sleeping and socializing that's the most difficult for us! i should be a little kinder, it's everyone's first time being alive, after all.